When Shani was a little girl, she dreamed of becoming a world famous fashion designer.

 

Like so many of us, she followed that path through her teens and early twenties, until one day, she hit a dead end. Those pretty dresses weren't making her smile anymore, but when she looked around, she couldn't see any other way to go. 

Looking back, she realised she had been ignoring her true feelings for a while. Writing her dissertation at university was way more fun than designing clothes, but she put her head down and soldiered on to the world of work. You know? That place where you sit in a cubicle for 8+ hours a day like a slave, take orders from assholes, and pretend you like your colleagues.

 

Eat, sleep, rinse, repeat.

 

Meanwhile, you get 2-4 weeks each year to do the things you really want to do.

What kind of a life is that?

Well, it's the kind of life most of us choose to live. It's a choice. And one day, Shani chose differently. 

She finally said no to a job that made her soul bleed, and she said yes to a bunch of things she'd always thought of maybe doing someday. That scared the bones of her. But that's how she knew she was moving in the right direction. And fuck someday.

 

She started to write from her bedroom. She wrote early in the mornings before the birds awoke, and late in the evenings, watching all of the lights flicker out. She wrote for fun, for herself, and her peace of mind. And the more she wrote, the more the words began to flow from her heart like a raging river that could not be stopped. 

Shani always notes, she is a work of art in progress - as we all are. She doesn't pretend to have this whole life thing figured out. But she's well on her way to figuring herself out, and what her calling is here on Earth.

 

Ask her what she does for a living, and she'll tell you she turns her heartbeats into words.

 

Everything Shani writes is written for the lost girl she used to be, the empowered woman she is today, and the better woman she strives to be tomorrow.

She writes for the women who have ever swallowed their truth out of fear of being judged.

She writes for the women who cannot see the glitter running through their veins.

She writes for the women who have ever felt like they don't belong in this world.

She writes for the women who have ever looked in the mirror and felt less than beautiful.

She writes for the women who have been searching outwards for love and acceptance their whole life, but are ready to look inwards. 

She writes for the women who want to learn, and to grow, and step into their best and most authentic life. Because we only get one.

And she writes... because she has to. Because this writing thing was a gift, and she's going to share it with us all.

Shani is currently travelling the world, tropical island hopping, and doing whatever the fuck she wants. Yoga, meditating, surfing, and most importantly, living.

You see, a funny thing happens when you start listening to those gentle whispers in your heart, instead of trying to drown them. The universe sees you, she backs you, and together you find a way to make magic happen. 

Millions of views, hundreds of articles, three incredible books, and one amazing man later... Shani hasn't looked back. 

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